Monday, 31 March 2014

Searched all over... Can't find nobody

Hey loves,

So I'm having a bad morning. Why? Well I think anyone who couldn't find anything to wear because their clothes either don't fit at all or if they manage to get it on, make them look like a stuffed Italian sausage and quite frankly that's not really the look I'm going for.

As I walked to the bus I'm some what thankful it's still cold and I can hide my weight behind my jacket. I say somewhat because like my clothes my jacket is fitting too snug, smh. 

Anyways, as I walk I feel like calling someone to cry with and as I think about all my close friend not one of them struggle with being over weight. I then feel a feeling of desperation and settle for even a possible acquaintance--none. 

I am the only over weight one? Sadly enough, I am. How does this make me feel? I'm not sure right now, part if me finds this ridiculously funny, and part of me is okay with it. I know that just because I may be the biggest out of all my girlfriends, it doesn't mean they don't have issues with how their body looks or their health. Slim people fill up the gyms and doctors offices too. 

I just came to the realization that this is between me and me, and me and God. I need to do this alone if I want to get it done. I can't look for motivation outside of my own self because when those motivations die off what next? Even when I look within my own life my strength is strictly from The Lord. I've realize that a lot of my issues are dealt with food and not prayer. I need to tackle my unhappiness, frustrations, hurts and pains, knowing that God is more than able to heal me, strengthen me, and love me through it. 

So while I may not have a girlfriend to call and lement about my fat I do have my hope that soon and very soon I won't have any fat to even lement about! 

Sunday, 30 March 2014

Fed up over weight girl

I'm in my bed thinking about April 9th. That's the day my new weight loss journey begins. But for some reason this sense of fear is in me. I feel like this is my last chance to get this right. The past 1 year for some reason my body (mostly my mind) does not want to cooperate. 

Do you ever feel like you just might not make it? The thoughts of being overweight this summer is paralyzing. 

I don't want to hide behind long, loose granny dresses, or have to wear blazers to cover my bulges. I HAVE TO LOSE THIS WEIGHT. It's do or die time.

These are my thought before I pray and then go to bed. Goodnight. 

Yours truly,
Fed up over weight girl

Make it a happy one :D

Decided on Dr. Poon

Hey ya'll!

So for months now i've heard about the doctor Poon Metabolic Clinics and all the success stories but was skeptical. The diet is a metabolic diet. You will focuses more on quality vs. quantity of food. It's high protein, low carb, and low sugar. 

Dr. Poon's Website

I lost 60 pounds back in 2011 but due to stress I put back on about 40 of those pounds in 2013/14. For some reason I can't seems to get it off this time around. I just don't have the drive to work out and  research methods of eating a way that my body responds to. Well Last month i was feeling a lot of pain and went to the doctor. I did a ultra sound and come to find out I have a 3cm cyst on one of my ovaries. IT TIME FOR CHANGE! I know for a fact this is due to the hormonal changes I'm going thorough due to my horrible eating, lack of exercise, and weight gain. 

I went to the walk in clinic that i've been going to years and got a referral. I had to do blood work and once the results came back then faxed it off to Dr. Poons clinic and surprisingly they called me back the next day (A SATURDAY!). I have an appointment set for April 9th and boy am I excited! All the reviews, comments, blogs from people on this diet rav about the success they've experienced. 

My concerns? Well i am a CARB-A-HOLIC! gurlllll, i love me some rice, cakes, cookies, bread! This diet focuses more on veggies and meats from what I hear. The information on the actually diet is very slim as confidentiality is major when you sign-up. But the great thing is I know complex carbs are not good for me anyways, so i'm looking forward to weening off of them. so anyways let me get to my stats:

SW (Starting weight): 187.2lbs

GW (Goal Weight): 140.0 lbs
Breast: 35
waist: 34
Height 5'6

I am pear shaped so I carry a lot of my weight in my hips and bum (which I am totally happy with that, LOL!)

Find your body shape

One more thing, I have A LOT of food allergies and suffer from the effects of that. I have extreme bloating, water retention, skin problems, low density hair, low immune system, and extreme fatigue. I am looking forward to getting rid of this symptoms just as much as the weight loss! 

Pray for me ya'll! I will get back to you and let you know how my appointment went!